Heartfelt Highway 2008

Why

2009-02-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

Why?

Why did you let your friends to tell me that you've left KL and settled in Singapore?
Why didn't you gave me the last call as promised?
Why wouldn't you want to be truthful to me?
Why were you a womanizer but never want to admit it?
Why did you ignore me and only come to me when you feel like to?
Why being a bastard?
WHY? WHY and WHY?

Why did you left without saying goodbye?

I really hate you for doing this to me.

Somehow, I believe today will be my lowest point of life.

The Gong Hei Fatt Choi Post

2009-02-03T21:58:00.006+08:00

Howie, Me, Addy and Jinn behind :D

Howie staring hotbabe ; Jinn's sister :P

Jinn and I <3.

;)

Vivi's place for steamboat.
Jeremy, Me and Zaf

GONG HEI 8 CHOI peeps!
Happy Chinese New Year
Selamat Tahun Baru Cina
Tamil saya x tahu.

<3.

P/s : Zaf love cooking fish :D

I hate this part right here.

2009-02-03T21:50:00.002+08:00

Right now, I am and will be a potential screamo.

It's been so long since I last taste the stress.

I AM STRUGGLING WITH SIXFREAKINGJOURNALS.

See the color combination im using for the wordings? That explains how stress am I now.

Oh fuck, I still have time with Tagged.

Better get going and fuck the papers.

Sorry if this post is rude,

but I really hate my life right now.

P/s : Fuck you, yes you.. that screwed my life. You know who YOU ARE. I still hate you for rubbing my rainbow and filled my days with fucking dull grey skies..

For once

2009-02-03T21:50:00.001+08:00

For once,

you're like a happy meal with a surprise toy.

Like a love song that plays in my head all the time.

For once :(

This is so blunt.

2009-01-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

I wasn't surprise when a friend of mine told me that you're leaving.

Okay, let me rephrase that.

I was shocked nearly to death when he told me that you're leaving.

Somehow I knew this day would come but, I never thought it would be this soon.

I led my life with pride as I shall lay no more tears for you. Now that your reasons for not to be with me is no more invisible, but visible.. I shall let you go. Let myself go.

This would be the hardest day of my life but I will always walk with a smile on my pretty face.:D

Let's turn the page hunny.

Perhaps my message isn't blunt enough for you to decode?

Ahhh, another emo post. #$%. God bless.

Tears, but joyful ones.

2009-01-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

I would be called selfish, if I pull you back. Infact, I would probably ruin your dreams. It is sad enough for me to lay my tears out but please believe me that I will always support you behind your back, encourage you to step further and be the the shining stars of all.

Do not blame yourself nor others for our past stupidity. It has been a year, and it's time to turn the page. Stand up and be someone. Move forward and never look back. Every seconds of my life with you, I cherished it till the end of time.

I'm sorry if I have let you down for the past years. Forgive me as I'm just another girl trying to figure out my life. Though things would not be same when you are far apart, but you will always be a part of us.

As now tears started to roll down to my cheek, I would want you to know that it's tears of joy. Wishing you a safe journey and bright future ahead.

P/s : I would love greeting postcards from the United Kingdom :)

Love,
Bubu

Duffy's word speaks my heart out

2008-12-31T13:10:00.000+08:00

Dont think everything's fine just because i'm here.
You think your loving but you dont love me.
I showed you the answer, now here's the door.
I'm broken hearted, seems like we're never started.

Needy

2008-12-17T21:26:00.000+08:00

I promised Jon boy to get him a christmas present. So we headed down to KLCC to shop for his present and got bored after a few rounds in Parkson and Toy'R'Us. He seems to have everything! From Transformers to Neo Shifter then sway down to StarWars and the list goes on.

Jon and I settled down in Isetan and we did something with the legos! And things went well until I met 3 lala boys. They sat beside me and asked for my number and all. Gosh, i was panic so I just took out my phone and press the call button. Seriously, I already know where would the call diverts too and was happy to find another excuse to call him. Was sad tho because he sounded a lil busy so we hung up before I could explain everything. Whatever, I missed him.

Anyway, those guys are pathetic and they just made me walked off. I hate them because I really love the lego section :(

Later then, we catched BOLT the movie at Leisure Mall. It made me dream even bigger of wanting a chihuahua. =B

*that was then, let's talk bout now*

10pm Wed, 17th 08

The days and hours of me missing you were just more than words.

Everytime I think of you, it made my heart beats even faster.

Yes, you make my world go round and round just like merry-go-round.

And I just couldn't stop thinking, dreaming, missing you.

Now that you've witness these great impacts of yours to my life,

Please brighten up my day and spare me some time, because apparently.. I do certainly need you.

P/s : and yes, jealousy approaches and it swims through my veins.

Randomnessssss

2008-12-15T15:14:00.000+08:00

4 more days till I touch Bangkok. It's so fun because I'm now already planning on my Bali trip for May 2009. I kinda missed the girls already. I mean, camp was fun but when you have someone you missed out there so badly, it's very depressing at times. :) Gosh, i better get dress before my friends screams to me on the phone. Promise i won't be late. kekeke. Cheers! Oh yea, Merry Christmas peeps!

GCC Camp 2008

2008-12-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

For the past 4 days, there are girls came up to me and said to me that i have fascinating hair, beautiful eyes and pretty hot.

Then, I was given the task to lead the "Mean Girls" in one of our team drama.

After that, I have people saying that my acting was impressive.

And, there are girls questioning bout my life, boyfriends and friendship.

Later, I was believed to have the largest clique in the camp.

I get lotsa xmas cards from people i dont know.

And not to forget, bookmarks from lil girls, icecreams and bananas and cakes from my guardian angel. :)

I took pictures but it's all in those girls' camera.

I had a bad day bathing, I miss my heather.

I ate alot because I was very depress, I miss home and someone who might be missing me too, or maybe not.

The most depressing thing was, i left my hello kitty towel, madagascar cup, plate and utensils... and i've GAINED WEIGHT!

but, camp was just okay. really... it's okay :)

Cam Friends

2008-12-07T21:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday would be the busiest day of the entire year. It's been so long since I last really focus on something really passionately. Well, what else than the DSLR camera which I've been falling in love since last year. But the sad thing is, I am not getting a DSLR this time. Infact, i will be getting a compact digital camera with a 900bucks as the damage. Preferable pink in color, comes girly, and with flat big lcd screens. Haha, yes I know I am very demanding. (= Was really sad at first because whenever I search of a brand, I would click on the DSLR link instead. I want to admit that I have not touched a single link of Digital Cams. =( Depress larrrr.

However, in another hand, I am very THANKFUL because Harez and Teej was there for me. I would never find friends like them especially Harez, helped me to search for cameras in the middle of the night. Without his help, I would have found nothing. Appreciate his help alot.

So, I believe the next post will be about the camera which I've bought then.

Toodles!

So close yet so FAR

2008-12-02T15:22:00.000+08:00

It's hard because I'm already sad.

Somehow, i'll try my best to put the big smile on my face.

Not a fake big smile, but a smile with full of support and love. (=

Neglected opportunities may not come back, but if you look away from the closed door you will find another door of new opportunities.

Whatever it is, you will always have me behind you supporting you all the way. My rock star (=

Tilll then, so close yet so far...

I Fell In STYLE because I'm Damn STYLO

2008-11-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

Dear diary of my meaningful life.

As there is no pouring rain today, my sis and I parked our car outside of the shopping mall. Which means, we have to walk up the hill in order to reach my music school. It wasn't really fun already because my teacher asked me to play the Farruca. Damn, which made me recall that I didn't practice my Flamenco skills. Panic as I strummed the first 3 strings. I knew I won't play well. Whatever, I showed the sulking face and my teacher said it's not working on him. Fine.

As class finished, we walked back to our beloved car and half way walking, my sis slipped and nearly fell. I was laughing so hard that eventually everyone in Mc D heard. Then, it made me think for a while, what if i fall, should i jaga my guitar or just let it land on the road? yes, no doubt tho, i fell a few steps later... but of course, I fell in style. and Yes, I did jaga my guitar .. and in return, i had my lil toe hurt. There was blood all over my toe and I quickly took of my sandals. So, basically I was standing at the side of the road without wearing anything on foot.

Now I couldn't eat well, I couldnt walk properly and I couldn't go online in the middle of the night. =( Isn't this miserable?

Owh, I just miss you lah.

Christmas Is Just another 32 more days

2008-11-24T21:01:00.000+08:00

I was asked to help out with the Christmas decorations for my church this year.

Was very reluctant to go on with it because I insisted white christmas theme, and Aunt Susan wanted red and gold theme. sigh. tell me, which one nicer?

So, Sandra the cousin of mine and I would start decorating the church with red and gold theme on the 13th of Dec, which is RIGHT after my camp. I could feel the tiredness already! Whatever.

At the same time, I'm trying to finish up the TheWishinBox Project. Adrien, if you are reading this : YOU BETTA GET YR ASS HERE AT MY PLACE RIGHT AFTER YOUR FINALS! because if you don't do so, i'm just gonna give up

Then, my sis will be celebrating her Christmas at Singapore with her man and I was asked to tag along. Which is i'd love to but part of me wanted to stay in KL and attend the Christmas Eve celebration at my church. By the way, everyone's invited (=

But before that, talking about my Bangkok trip. Aarrrrrgggghhh... I will not get to see 1) my cousin and her husband and her lil italian chinese baby because they are going back to italy for holidays... 2) Ches, my big bro's girlfie.. because she'll be leaving back to Aussie right the day before we arrive. or some sorta that.

andd, seriously, i dare not list down my shopping list so far =X

HOW DEPRESSING?

very larrrr..

I'm working on it .........

2008-11-21T23:54:00.005+08:00

Told ya I'm workin' on it.
*wink*

Open Doors

2008-11-13T18:38:00.000+08:00

I questioned all my questions, over and over again.

Why are you so far? while I'm still so near.

Is it just me, or you've already feel the same way too?

Truth stood right infront of me, but why am I so reluctant to face it?

Neglected opportunities may not come back, but if you look away from the closed door you will find another door of new opportunities.

You certainly deserve the best, and I believe that good things will come your way. In any case, you will ALWAYS have me behind you supporting you all the way. My rock star, forever.

But for now, I guess I must have the courtesy to say bye bye.

A Twist In The Beginning.

2008-10-14T11:46:00.002+08:00

" Anak manja la ni.. "

" Tak de lah kak " smiling politely

Nervous, as I walked into the registration hall. What kept me walking ahead was the excitement that I had in me to see the new world. There aren't much people. Not what I've expected.

I sat down, filled the forms given and headed to the counter for payments. Later then, parents were asked to attend the parents meeting held by the Registrar. He is a fierce man. I don't really like the way he talk, even thought he's trying to prove us the fact and reasons why we are being treated this way - I would say he's harsh in another way, but who cares.

1.30pm.
Talking about hostel, I was the first one and I was given the responsibility to be the dorm leader. I chose my bed and closet and study tables but did not bother to wash the toilet! haha. I was asked to check everything, make sure it's all completed. At first, I felt very annoyed with the parents as they keep asking me to do things which I COULD NEVER DO. The first girl I talked to was Siva. She is funny and cute. Then, I met Anitha. We all calls her Namita (Namita is a sexy bollywood actress) and she's really proud with that name! Hehe. The rest are Jen, Mal, Anitta, Ran, and Tris. They are really nice, friendly and helpful I was given the name 'baby cina'. (=
I don't know why.

Sunday evening.
I finally gathered everyone and we had some discussion made. I went out for dinner with Botak while the others settled down. Talking about Botak, he is really nice because he let me drive his baby kelisa! haha. (told you I can drive!) We had dinner, then drove around. Basically, I'm the only one who is having fun lah. haha. He was worried because I made many emergency breaks and sometime never bother to break at all! haha. Thanks Botak, for everything! haha. And I owe you one right? =P

We decided to clean the dorm because we just realise others already did the cleaning part.
So, we grabbed the next dorm's mop and broom. Half way washing, we had ONE big problem. WATER SHORTAGE! Ahhhhhhh.. All of us were so worried as the floor is flooded with soap, and all of us haven bathe yet! I was about to cry tho. We then called our beloved warden, Cik Niza. She asked us to check the meter. So, 5 of us went down in the middle of the night. Real spooky as it's still a new apartment. We just realise then, paip bocor pulak. Sigh. Ring warden again and she said she'll come down. We had a lil chat when she came down. All of us are afraid of ghost. haha. Wherever we went, we sticked as one. All of us were worried because the water problem havent solve yet. Then, one of us came out with this briliant idea.

GET PAIL > GET OUR ASS TO 2nd FLOOR > TAKE WATER IN WARDEN'S DORM !

I was like.... " Harrrrrrrrrr? Really arr?"
they was like... " Yessssssssss!! "

So, we settled down around 2am. Chit chat and we slept for 3 hours only. Woke up at 5.30am to mandi at 3rd floor. As usual, I'm the last one. Hehe. Everyone waited for me. We then went to the campus. I stepped out from the programme. I couldn't take it. I was mentally and physically exhausted. I packed my stuff and left around 7pm.

Well, even though it's just a short time, I really did enjoy especially the water part! haha. I will never forget you guys. And thanks for the card guys.

This is how I end before starting. But I still haven't give up. New chapter AHEAD!

2008-10-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

Tersentak aku seketi ka

Seakan-akan tak perc aya
Saat ku lihat kau te lah berdua
Sebelum sampai dirik u melepas rindu

Tak satupun kata te rucap
Ketika ku tanya meng apa
Airmata penyesalan m engalir deras
Itu pun tak bisa kem balikan dirimu

Ku maafkan semua ini
Walau tak ingin lagi ku melihatmu
Ku maklumi ketidaksa baranmu menanti
Bejana cinta yg ku t inggal sesaat

Sudahlah, lupakanla h
Tak mungkin lagi kau ku miliki.

Button?

2008-10-10T10:27:00.001+08:00

10:30am

Right now, I am suppose to pack my luggage! ARrrrghh. I just dont know where to start.
Darling, please help me ! Gimmi a kickstart button!

this is the time of my life,
Bubu loves everyone!

New Chapter Ahead

2008-10-07T20:27:00.002+08:00

9 months ago, I wish to own a MyVi.
Now, I wish I could drive my brother's Lancer.

8 months ago, I struggled working as a part timer in Folio.
Now, I'm enjoying every single day of my life.

7 months ago, I then got offered to join the Pru family. I then met ChenChen, Erman & Izatul.
Now, we are all walking towards our different path, which also approaching our very own dreams.

6 months ago, I celebrated my birthday.
Now, I'm about to celebrate Panpan's!

5 months ago, I whined about how stressful is it to handle the policyholders and cocky agents. Had a 2 days off to Singapore with my sister. I call it the 'stress escape'.
Now, I miss doing return mails. =)

4 months ago, I finally tender my resignation letter without discussing it with my sister first.
Recently, I enrolled into Masterskill without discussing it with my sister too! Hehehe.

3 months ago, I was struggling with my pathetic teenage life.
Now, I'm still a lil emo about it.

2 months ago, I met him.
Now, *smilessssss*

A months ago, I touched Macau and Hong Kong.
Now, I think my smiles are missing most probably because I left it there.

Recently, Addy got wasted in Asian Heritage Row.
Now, he still couldn't get over it!

At the moment, I am really excited to turn the page of my life and make tomorrow a better day.

Days later, I'll be moving out of my home. Let's see what's gon be next!

Letter to Home

2008-09-20T09:20:00.003+08:00

As promised, I would keep in touch with you guys through my blog.
Yes yes, I went to the casino on my first night in Macau. Spent 100dollars only. =)

can't wait to get my ass back Macau because that place is awesome!

and.

yesterday was my first night in Hongkie ; went to Mongkok (Wong Kok) and I bought alot of Hello Kitty items. CUTEEE KITTIES!

and....

Adrien ;

I couldn't find fold transparent umbrellas for your sister. There is non-folding umbrellas but if fucking expensive ; not worth of money.
I haven shop for your Ayumi's CD, but I will try to look for it today.
Anddddddd, you want T'shirts?
andd, I can't wait to come to Hongkong again with you! (and I believe we gon shop till our undie drops! hahahahahhaaaa

(reply me through your proud blog)

loving you, as always ;
Bubu Tiong

Goodbyes and Welcome.

2008-09-18T07:37:00.002+08:00

Dear blog of my life.

I have just finished packing and it's like as if i'm leaving for months. Yes, I did not sleep the whole night - Maybe doze of for a while. I am very excited as I pack my all my dresses and shorts and bikini and.. haha. I KNOW IM GOING TO PARRRRRRRRRRRRRTTTTTAAAAYYYYY !

Yay! Bubu's gon partay till the cow comes home =)

Ok, what a pathetic lie
I am just not going to partay lah.
..

okay, before i get myself out of topic.

I would really want to dedicate this post to one of my beloved, Adrien.

*hearts* *hearts*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!
thanks for calling me at 1am in the morning while i'm crying over things.
Really appreciate your presence ; you toughen me up!
I need you just like how Britney needed her coach to tighten up her ass.

And I will definately get the Ayumi's single for you!
`let me have another glance of the cover please` ahahaaa

Do have fun tho you will be celebrating it without me,
but i'll promise double the FUN when I'm home next week.
I love you, I love you and I love you.
`but we would never meant to be together, you know that right? haha`

& reserve my slice of choco indulgence!
I'll hate you if you dont.
I dont care if it's rotten or what.
I just want to see my cake =)

And to Michelle,

I'll see you on 26th September okay? No, I will not bring Fey along. Tho I really want him to be there. I love you Mich, please cheer up while I'm not here okay? I'll be shopping on your behalf. TEEHEEEEEEE...

& PanPan,

Nothing much to say but I just can't wait to see you! Love you too babe. Do keep in touch ya.

And others. Thank you for being there for me and tolerate my late night sms-es.

Kak Azni, you are the best. I love you and it's really more than words. Send my regards to, okay i forgot her name dy.. haha. anyway, take care ya!

Muzzy, I will miss you too and I also lub you. hahaha.

and to the one I loved the most, I am really sorry for the past few days and I really tried to make things out before I leave. Sigh. Take care and have fun with Tinky. whoever it is.

It's hard to say goodbye now and I would rather hear a warm welcome.
BUBU the Great, not! haha.

I wasn't certain after all

2008-09-17T01:26:00.002+08:00

Tears rolled freely as I flipped through my diary. It made me recall the moments I had for the past months. The moments I had with him.

Of all sudden, I cried even harder. I don't know why.

The scene was familiar and I could already feel the strong pain from far. The fear of seeing the one you loved being hurt constantly was terrible for me.

& I just couldn't let this happen to the one I value the most right now.
Tried preventing things from happening & I accidentally tear down the hope and faith that we were building.

I was afraid. I can see that he cannot take the pain, anymore. I was gutless to ask him to go through this obstacle with me. I just never want him to feel the pain, not even in the first place. If only I knew he could, I wouldn't end things just like that.

Is it the world that changed, or is it just me? I couldn't stand it as my heart is being abused repeatedly. Being in the state of physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted for all that I've been through in life.

Why the life I lead would always affect the one I love?
Was it the people or is it just me which never meant to be in love?

I'm sorry.

If live allows second chances,
I wouldn't have call it off.

I just realize that I wasn't certain when I pen down in that email.
I missed you. I really missed you.

Believe me,
I can still find the strength in the moments we made.
They may take our dreams away.
They may tear our songs apart.
All the broken dreams they may take.
But they can never have yesterday,
Because I'm holding on.
Always will.

I know what I want now,
Bowie Tiong

Honkie honkie

2008-09-08T16:00:00.003+08:00

To hongkong with love
10 more days to go.

Yes!

Random tags

2008-09-02T22:17:00.004+08:00

I am really BORED.
so I copied a tag from Queenie's blog.
Let's do it. (=

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?

This guy (=

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Duh.. of course - I sound so fake right? hahaha

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
Talker. Fey's a listener. Hehe.

4. Do you take compliments well?
Huh....? yes should be the answer?

5. Do you play Sudoku?
Yes yes yes!

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness,would you survive?
Yes, unless I got stranded with lions or tiger or even snakes.

7. What song are you listening to?
Afterlife by Avenged Sevenfold. Loving it.

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Yes. (=

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
Monopoly. Because I can act rich! haha.

10. If a person you really liked was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you?
No way as a third party .

11. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
Yes. Hahaha.

12. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
Be pursued.

13. Use three words to describe yourself.
I love Fey.

14. Do any songs make you cry?
Mengenangmu by KrisPatih. Hehe.. there's more but this would be the top on the list.

15. Are you continuing your education?
Yes, not that I love books but Im not ready yet to face the world.

16. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
Not yet (=

17. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you'll grab?
I'll save my teddy bears! Hahaha.

18. How often do you read books?
Almost everyday? Novels lah.

19. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
More to past.

20. What is your favorite children's book?
The Ugly Ducky. Haha..

21. What color are your eyes?
Green.

22. How tall are you?.
167cm, that's what stated in my red book.

23. Where is your dream house located?
Beach side of Redang Island.

24. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
Yes, alot.

25. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
"Nothing to display"

27. Do you like mustard?
Yes =P

28. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Sleep... then EAT! hahaha..

29. Do you look like your mom or dad?
Equally, cannot be too pilih kasih okay.

30. How long does it take you in the shower?
Within an hour.

31. Can you do the splits?
Yes but I need to polish my skills.

32. What movie do you want to see right now?
ZOHAN! ZOHAN! ZOHAN!

33. What did you do for New Year?
Clubbing with sister, Addy and WenDa.

34. Do you own a camera phone?
'm phoneless right now. Haha

35. Was your mom a cheerleader?
Hell no! HAHA

37.How many hours of sleep do you get at night?
Alot and I don't wanna count.

38. Do you like care bears?
Yes yes yes! (=

39. What do you buy at the movies?
Coke + Popcorns = standard larr..

40. Do you know how to play poker?
Yes.. =/

41. Do you wear your seatbelt?
No. Hahaha.. Really, no. Not even when I'm having my driving lessons.

42. What do you wear to sleep?
Pyjamas

43. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
Every time they held events here seem to be HUGE, not big.

44. How many meals do you eat a day?
2 or 3. Sometimes 4 or 5. Haha

45. Do you always read friendster bullettins ?
No, those are craps. Sorry.

46. Do you like funny or serious people better?
Funny because people with no sense of humour are basically boring and I don't blend with boring people.

47. Ever been to L.A.?
No, would Loveeee tooo (=

48. Did you eat a cookie today?
No, please buy me some.

Girls can actually handle Lancers

2008-09-02T16:17:00.004+08:00

26th of August 2008. I had my driving test for the second time after being such a failure on the first one. I know, that proves I'm just not ready to drive. Very upset with the first attempt as I cried on the spot. Never changed, I'm still a cry baby. I uttered the F word so many times till I rarely remember what happened next.

My shameful moments then end when I passed during the second try.
Too happy that I made everyone felt glad for me. HAHAHA. I then said to myself " I can nowwww driveeee!! Wheee "

Very very happy lah.

But the fact is not what you see.

Actually,
I haven't been driving since then. I drove lah, but occasionally only, with an auto car of my sister's. I still couldn't find the guts to drive a manual car especially with slopes everywhere around KL. Man, I'm such a loser and this sucks monkey balls. I'm a bad bad driver even thought I always say to myself the other way round.

Even Fey thinks I can't drive.
Everyone mindsets themselves to think that I can't drive. =(

SIGH!
Please tell me that I'm actually a great driver. Just that I need time to adapt with the driving world and the very corrupted driving skills of others and also the bad roads planned by our lovely government. Please please tell me that because Fey doesn't think that way. He still thinks that I'm not meant to drive even though he has eternal love towards me. [hehehe]

Big sigh!

Back to 5K

2008-09-02T14:59:00.000+08:00

I was browsing Michelle's friendster album and I found one really memorable picture of us.

Michelle,the not-so-garang Monitor Class (=

Miss you guys loads.

oh by the way ;

Michelle & Panpan should remember this ...

Hahahahahhahahaa *wink wink*

I would never forget what happened next and how you guys made me 'fell in style' and ended up all soaking wet!

But still ... Love you guys. <3
Cheers!

2008-09-01T01:14:00.000+08:00

The Love Guru turns out to be one of the most hilarious show I've ever watch this year. Mike Myers definitely did a great job by creating this character that he played. 4 thumbs up `including Fey's (=

PS : I still wanna watch ZOHAN!

2008-08-01T08:35:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was tiring but over I had a great time.
Today I'm about to get my arse back to Bukit Bintang as I'm going to work.
This sucks monkeyballs.
=(

Till then,
Bowie's off to work.

2008-07-25T13:49:00.000+08:00

from the pic above, you can seriously see how FREE am i these days.
no school, no work, no money to shop..
come on, i need a breakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. fly me somewhere! *wink*

2008-07-22T23:07:00.000+08:00

I couldn't remember when's the first time i step into pru office. should be 3 years back, which reminded me of my bad habit - visiting my sister after tuition classes - and i usually end up reaching home around 10pm. My sis is a workaholic. That explains why she's a sleepaholic on weekends. She always head for sleep-a-thon while others are busy enjoying their weekends.

Months ago, I became a part of the pru family. Well, my first person in my family list would be my sister lah, as she's the one that brought me in. Then, I met my very first girl. She was fun. We talked and talked and talked. She's nice. I liked her... She's Azni.

We were placed side by side. We became even closer than day 1. Everyday was heaven for me. We could talk like forever, i mean for real. We share every single lil dirty secrets. Hehe.

Joy continued for months.

and months...

and months...

The day I left pru, was also the day I had fun the most. We we're crazy with the karaoke thingy.

.. okay, my mind is blank now. I guess i need to sleep. So lame lah this post. Potong steam dy. Dont wanna post lah.

2008-07-21T21:04:00.000+08:00

"SHAME ON YOU, YOU SCREW YOUR OWN LIFE".

yeah, i deserve it...
tata.

Run with Horses

2008-07-17T13:45:00.000+08:00

I realise it has been awhile since I last attended church service. So, I went and took a quick glance on the daily bread. While flipping through the pages, I came across this story and it really made me realise something that I've been questioning myself since day one. The title was 'Run with Horses'.

If yr a Christian, read - Jeremiah 12:5 .

In Run with Horses, the prophet Jeremiah questioned God because he felt very doubtful & discouraged about the fierce competition. God then answered by saying ;

" The competition has just begun. So far you've been dealing with minor issues ( running with footmen ). How will you handle it when the really tough stuff comes ( contending with horses )?

***

Perhaps I've run into some difficulties recently : coping with studies, family and friends.
I seriously never and will not believe that I will succeed in nursing line. I have no basics and all. What about studying in an new environment : Aussie? Well of course I'd love to start a new life there as I've partly messed up here.

I've always been an art lover. And I used to dream of being a successful designer, painter, illustrator and a professional photographer. In another hand, I do look ahead on having a secure job, taking care of my family and driving nice cars. Will my dream profession lead me into this kind of life? Hard to say.

I've learnt that we all always run with footmen and tend to compete. But there are times we should try to run with horses. It's alright to lose, at least you know you've tried.. and that's life.

Live life to the fullest. You only live once.

2008-07-09T21:31:00.000+08:00

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies,
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what its like...
to be like me.

Siemens Run

2008-07-09T10:04:00.000+08:00

Siemens Run 2008
What Are You Running For?

10km of success! We managed to finished it on time.
Yeah, approximately 1 hour and 30 minutes. (that's for the last 50 contestant lah)
Cheersssss babe!

Extra pic, not so babe lah (=

Me ; Sean, my lifesaver when i'm in deep shit.

Heart breaking.

2008-05-25T10:59:00.000+08:00

My Undang Result was such a disguise. I failed. Oh yes, I failed.
I was pretty nervous at first due to the laggish of the lauzy computer. It went well after that.
I checked a few times before hitting the TAMAT button and it was a disastrous moment for me when I gave a quick glance at the result on the screen.

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Tuan/Puan,

1. Dimaklumkan bahawa tuan/puan telah LULUS Ujian Kecacatan, Warna & Penglihatan.
2. Dimaklumkan bahawa tuan/puan telah GAGAL Ujian Bahagian I (Statik)
3. Jumlah markah tuan/puan adalah seperti berikut :

SEKSYEN A : 12/15
SEKSYEN B : 23/25
SEKSYEN C : 5/10

JUMLAH MARKAH : 40/50
MARKAH LULUS : 42/50

Sekian terima kasih.

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I stoned for seconds. Tears rolled down,... expectedlah.
I am feeling so down and heartbroken.
I don't wanna take my driving license anymore.
Okay, that was a lie.
Next war, 31st MAY 2008 !

2008-04-21T12:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Bubu!
Ouch, that's me..
Happy Birthday to myself then =P

I was working till late on 18th April 2008. Staring at my watch, it's almost 9pm. Mich, Adrien & Pan were waiting for me since 6pm. I was really worried that they would just cut of the plan. Tears rolled down when I realise it's raining. Well, it makes my day even rougher. How am I suppose to get my ass to Pavillion while it's raining heavily? My sister was very busy that day because she had 4 meetings ; one after another.

I went there anyway and I manage to catch a shwwwweeeet dinner with them. Headed to Wong Kok and we really had fun! (you know, wild wild us)

Special thanks to Michelle for ordering cutie little cupcakes, Panpan for the funny pictures, Adrien for the support and make ups (as always) and last but not least, my sister.. for being there by my side even when im full of shit. Thank you all, I love you guys for making this real!

Sigh

2008-04-16T22:35:00.000+08:00

10:50pm Wednesday 16/04/08

i see my plans fading already. 18 April would be a very special day and i want it to be memorable. things isnt working, at all. im depressed for little little things. i just realise, it's just not the right time to celebrate. everyone is so down. perhaps next year? sigh. Hey, i'm turning 18 in another 2 days, can you imagine that?

I'm still sad.

i don't want to see the girl i appreciate the most crying all night. stop hurting her.

2008-04-13T22:46:00.000+08:00

I've been really excited with my birthday coming up next week. Yes, i still have not decided how many people will and should be going for the exclusive dinner (actually not so exclusive lah) because the question is on who and not how many people. So, close friend, you know who you are. pack your bags and stuff cuz we are getting out ass up to Pavilion for dinner. And of course, I would want to go to Sunway Lagoon (please, i've been begging since last year.. so please make it happen wont yer?)

So, working is hard. Very hard. It's just plain boring.
But at the same time, I got to know alot of new friends. Malay friends, smarter friends (haha) and even pretty and handsome babes! There is good bosses and cool bosses as well, maybe another way round? You'll never know! (=

And recently, I got back in touch with my friends. Just met one of my friend today before my guitar lesson. He was really nice (= And he owns a nice car too *wink* There's so many things to talk about but I just make it short,

Im doing very well in life. Peace & Good night (=

another day as a school leaver

2008-03-25T20:15:00.000+08:00

i could not even remember when was the last time i faced the computer for such a long time. was checking on the scholarships and careers offered. well, i do not know how and where to start but will always do my best because i really really really need the scholarship. thought of taking loan from the government earlier but decided to try for the scholarships. i was too manja at first because i did not want to get bonded for five years. come to think then, i needed the five years working experience too. so why not go ahead with the 5 years?
i am currently working at my sister's place. it is fun but at the same time i have to face unfavourable peoples. sometimes it turn out bad and it sucks monkey balls, but whatever it is, at the end of the hectic day, my super sis would always cheer me up! sometimes with a drink from Thai Club =P hehehe
back to my plans, there are a few college in my mind.ohh ya, i am taking diploma in nursing. so if anyone of you know some good college that provides excellent offers, do tell me.

and what is next? where are my friends? i am truly sorry to those that tried to contact me, call me, dig me out of no where, email me, comment me, spam my comment box or anything. i will definately call u guys out one day after i settle down my scholarships. right now, i am very un organized. lol

just a little comment about life after highschool. lololol
life outside school isn't that glamourous as i thought. cheh.
in alot of things, you have to make firm decisions which is also very stressful.
and you have to be alot more responsible with your own life.
teen life will always impact your future. good teen life always leads to better future. so listen to your mama.
i regreted. if i have the time machine, i would turn back the time back to 2003. that is the time where i stepped onto the wrong path and never sober enough to realise that stupid mistake.
after so many falls i had, so much pain i have gained, so huge impact i made, so small success i have achieve.
but hey, life does not end right here. look forward in changing your life.
if you fail once, it does not mean you'll fail for the rest of your life.
play smart with your life. keep trying..
it is not too late, yet. (=